Personal Post

In need of advice.

My oldest daughter lives with my mom in Idaho. She has been there for two years. I want to get her back becuase I miss her so much. So, I try to work on articles as often as possible and my husband is looking for work again after being fired becuase the car broke down and needed to be repaired (which it is now). But, when my mom came to visit around Easter, she brought up the fact that she wanted me to sign over all of my parental rights just so my mom could get my daughter medical for free. While I don't mind my daughter getting medical for free. I don't want to sign over my rights. Becuase getting them back would be tough no matter how easy my mom says she would let it be. Thats not how the government would see it going, I am sure. Besides that, I already have people thinking I gave up my daughter. It was only supposed to be for a month and my mom never brought her back. With the three times that my mom has been here, it has been a struggle to get my daughter to understand that she should be here. I feel as if my mom has brain washed my daughter to make her think that life there is better and that life over here isn't just as good. My daughter is always asking for me to move back to Idaho. I can't. For various reasons. Not just becuase I don't have the money. But becuase I don't want to live so close to my ex again after what happened to make me move here in the first place. I have a plan to get my daughter at the end of July. But am finding it hard to bring up to my mom. I'm very scared. With only one income for the home (my daughter Kiera's SSD), I fear my mom would use this against me legally to make it impossible for me to get my daughter back. I am trying currently to get a degree in freelance writing so that I can better myself. I am thinking maybe in Sept to get a job again that pays. That's when my youngest turns six months. Today, my mom brought up the whole deal of me signing over my rights for medical. I didn't say much. And I couldn't find it in me to speak up. I want my daughter back. My mom, I feel, stole her from me when she promised to bring her back after a month. I call my daughter everyday. My mom should understand how I feel. She went through similar as a parent when I was younger. Everyday, I practically call my youngest daughter by her sister's name. I even refer to her by accident in conversation. The days are growing near when I should speak up and say, "I'm taking back my daughter." Fear stops me.